Sunday 16 September 2007

How do you replace something that was once important to you but now is gone?

You can lose a favourite item, say a pen, and still find the exact same one at the bookstore, but how do you replace a loved one?

How do you replace a good grandfather? Death is part and parcel of life but I vehemently disapprove of someone so indispensable be taken away from me. I had wanted to spend a few more years with him. I had wished for him to see me get wedded, start a family, settle down, and then my children would bring such joy to him. My dreams seemed like castles in the sky and I can dream no more. No more.

As if not bad enough, I lost another person valuable to me. How do you replace a person whose company you enjoyed? Irreplaceable she is, lonely I am. I just lost my pillar of support, my source of motivation. I have lost my strength. Blame it on my ignorance.

I still remember the lost-and-found corner in Primary school where one could claim his or her lost item found by another person who kindly did not keep it. I wish there was a lost-and-found corner for Very Important People (VIP) so I can have these VIP back in my life.